It's like I've been enlightened, but more like endarkened. I just don't care about anything anymore. I've always been like Maud from mlp or Mae like on Avatar, waiting for a Pinkie Pie or a Tai Li type to sweep me off my feet but I've given up. I've given up on everything, from love to life. My past is nothing but a bunch of regrets and I'm just so very tired. I don't want to commit suicide or anything but I don't wish to live either. I'm just a blob waiting to die and rot away.