So I lost a friend recently. Not to death, thankfully. To my own assholish behaviour. Now I can accept that my friend doesn't forgive me. If the roles were reversed, I'd have done the same. I only ever talked about myself. Sure, I didn't know what else there was, since I didn't know any common interests, but all I had to do was ask. I'm not asking for advice on how to rebuild our friendship. It's over. And it's my fault. Nor am I asking about forming new ones. I have that information. It's not social or mental or moral advice I'm looking for.
I never did any giving in that friendship. And I wasn't even thinking about it at the time. How do I know I haven't been bringing others down too? What if my parents are right about me, that I am a narcissist?