Topic: Please explain your gore/death/stuff like that fetish to me

It's the same as "why do you find x fetish hot?". It often isn't explainable, specific things work for specific people.
For me, if I had to try to explain it, I just like the idea of cutting things open and seeing the meats, which then leans over into food play(mama always said not to play with my food).
for my own safety I have to very much clarify that I only like this in fiction. I do not like real gore(I don't mind seeing it but it isnt my thing), even if I did, I am highly mysophobic to the point where I don't like people even touching me, let alone their intestines and what not.

i should also point out i am a autist and i had no friends growing up because home school and i am only internet yeen i never leave house.

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