So I recently came out of a very deep depression. Hopefully, I'll be mostly better from now on, as its been a good 4ish months without an episode. What put me in that depression was the separation from myself from all of my friends after I moved to another state for school.
The misconception that so many people make about extroverts is that we're always happy. Like, our desire to go out and make friends somehow means we're better off. Problems occur when you're like me and have a stomach-turning fear of abandonment and loneliness. The issue was that I had become very comfortable with my old friends, and in ways a bit further than most people are used to.
A few of us were pretty odd, in that we were very comfortable being naked around one another. We openly talked about sex, watched porn together, even going as far as fooling around together on a pretty regular basis. We weren't romantically involved though.
After moving, I had a lot of issues adjusting to not having them around, and suddenly I found it very difficult to make new friends. I wanted new best friends and I wanted them immediately. Naturally, it just doesn't work that way, so I shut down. Probably the worst thing that could have happened.
Luckily, I've come through and have made some new friends, albeit no where near the level of "comfort" I had with the old ones.
Given that I prefer drawn/animated porn over the regular kind,I figured I'd try to come here to try and feel connected to other people in that way again. Obviously not in the same way as before, but just through conversation about the stuff thats near impossible to talk about with just anyone you meet in person.
So I figured I'd ask you guys why you come here. What makes you come to e621? And more importantly, why would you respond to such a weird forum topic?
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