What were you like in the past, and how have you changed?

For me, I used to be an asshole, putting people down constantly. I would go after people who did specific things, but id do it in an harmful manner. Now, I'm much better now. I know what things to do and how to do it better

I used to think everyone could be reasoned with, regardless of how differing our thoughts and opinions were.
Nowadays I know there are legitimates some people who simply are too stupid, stubborn, or juvenile to even comperehend why somebody else has a different opinion than they do, or to make an effort at understanding the differences between their own life and the lives of others.

I used to be a very friendly kind and accepting person, completely open minded and trusting. People used to say "you have a heart of gold".

Several very bad situations, a bit of manipulation, and some roofies later and not so much.

180ed and am now a total misanthrope who thinks a majority of people are totally niave and delusional. I don't trust anyone for any reason and always assume everyone is putting on an act.

I'm still open minded. One of the few people who "don't" use a blacklist because people's imaginary scenarios and ideas don't hurt anyone and as such don't offend or disgust me. (It's better to get some of that shit out here in fantasy imagination land. Instead of hiding it away until it eats away your mind and makes you actually do bad stuff.)

But the trust is totally gone. Replaced with fear, at times loathing, and depression.
Can't even trust professionals. Cops lie, dentists drillNfill "cavities" that don't need it (with the idea that that filling has a set life and you will have to come back and pay to get it replaced), doctors bank in on your insurance, mechanics rip people off left and right, locksmiths commonly drill and destroy locks because it's faster and they can charge more, and don't get me started on presidential candidates and other official government positions.

Simultaneously keeping people ignorant, and then exploiting that ignorance.

At times I wonder if this is hell, and those around me are demons sent to torment.

So ya.... I've changed. Wanna change back. But once you've had a peek, no amount of brain bleach can make that crap go away.