Its for uhhhhhhh science....... ya

How I personally got into it? I'm actually not sure. I think it may have started with me hearing that it's a thing and thinking "woah, really? That's disgusting. I can't beleive people do that... I need to see this to beleive it" and so I did and then I thought "yeah, this sure is disgusting, but it looked like it felt real good when she took that huge shit". And it was just down hill from there.

Some of my earliest memories are of being about 3 years old and peeing outside with the neighbor girl who was about my same age. So basically the first time I ever saw a vulva it was urinating, and I have always loved how pussies looked. Urine can also be kind of pretty in a way; I mean it golden liquid, isn't it? :P

I also associate both peeing and pooping with a feeling of release or relief, kind of in the same way many feel release or relief during and after an orgasm. Sex, masturbation, urination, and defecation ALL involve either the genitals, the anus, or both, so between all of that they all just feel kind of linked to me. This is why I fantasize about being able to feel the release of an orgasm, urination, and defecation all at once. Admittedly I have pretty mixed feelings about feces in real life because of the smell, but just fantasizing about it or viewing it in porn you can just imagine it smells/ tastes like chocolate.

when i started searching for yiff years ago, i didn't knew how to search things the right way, nor the use of blacklist since i was new to this imageboard type sites the main ones i knew were furaffinity, pixiv and when that failed i just put furry porn on gogle images and go were the searches lead me. every once in a while i would bump into some of these, i didn't thought much about them but a little grossed. with the pass of time and similar encounters with similar images you can say that they kind of grew on me.

i just have to accept that part of me now and live with it even if deep down i'll always know i'm rotten to the core.