I never wanted to have to make a post like this but i'm so desperate and broken that I know I need help and have nowhere else to turn to, my "life" is a complete sham and i'm a completely useless waste of space, I thought I could endure this but recent events beyond my control have completely destroyed what little will I had left and now I stand on the precipice not knowing if I can endure anymore, if you want to help a complete garbageheap like me find my place in the world and break free fom this "cage" i'm trapped in then it would be best for me to explain my whole life story for context because my whole life has been pretty shit and I can't stand it anymore.

I'm going to sleep soon so I won't be able to respond right away but, I hope somebody can find it in their heart to listen to my story and help me or advise me on what options I have to break free from these "shackles", I don't want to die but I can't live like this anymore, please help me i'm so desperate to change my life but I don't posses the skills or money or will to change so I need help.

I hope I don't get banned or reported for this, i'm genuinely in desperate need of help.

Is there a suicide prevention hotline in your area that you can call? All the more power to anyone here who's willing to hear you out, but being able to vocalize all your thoughts and emotions out loud to another human is immensely powerful

Hopefully, you'll find this resource to be of help.

Depending on where you are in the world, there are plenty of different phone or chat hotlines that you can call to help you talk through what is going on in your life, to listen, and to help you find solutions to some of the problems you face, etc.

This website https://findahelpline.com/i/iasp or this https://blog.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines/ both have a lot of different support hotlines, and it's organised so that you can see what's available for your part of the world.

You can also google/search the internet for things like 'suicide resources' or 'suicide hotline' + the name of your country. And that will help you find more local resources and support numbers that you can use. There are always options, even if it doesn't feel like it.

And reaching out to these places for help is a good first step.