sorry for the rant

I've been a furry since i was 13, now im 29, and i never made a fursona, never nade friends, or interacted really with anyone, i always wanted to fit, some time around 2010 i was making some friends on DA, but someone told me to fuck off, because i'm mexican, i don't have friends in real life, and i don't have friends on the internet, i just had a few insignificant connections, played some games with people i never talked again with, and i feel so pathetic coming here, complaining, recently my grandad died, and my girlfriend of 5 years left me, the school is the only thing keeping me sane, it's so damn hard that i have no other choice to give it full time, and don't feel anything else.

theresamirrorball said:
someone told me to fuck off, because i'm mexican

That person is a troll. It's depressing that trolls exist. It can be hard to ignore them, but at least don't take them seriously.
As for the rest, all I can do is wish you luck.

If you're looking for people to talk to, consider joining the e6 discord.

La depre pega fuerte, este año la muerte se llevó a 2 amigos mios.
Siempre está la posibilidad de encontrar tiempos mejores, busca y rodeate de gente buena onda que no se meta y ni te meta en dramas. Bajo el estado de depresión, es importante mantenerse ocupado siempre, ebfocate en tus estudios, trata de conocer mas gente y abrirte a nuevas experiencias. Hacer ejercicio tambien ayuda, en ese camino tambien puedes conocer a nuevos amigos, es un ambiente agradable.

theresamirrorball said:
sorry for the rant

I've been a furry since i was 13, now im 29, and i never made a fursona, never nade friends, or interacted really with anyone, i always wanted to fit, some time around 2010 i was making some friends on DA, but someone told me to fuck off, because i'm mexican, i don't have friends in real life, and i don't have friends on the internet, i just had a few insignificant connections, played some games with people i never talked again with, and i feel so pathetic coming here, complaining, recently my grandad died, and my girlfriend of 5 years left me, the school is the only thing keeping me sane, it's so damn hard that i have no other choice to give it full time, and don't feel anything else.

Try the e6 discord. You could also try play by post tabletop games like DnD on some forums, if that kind of asynchronous thing is easier for your schedule. Your English looks goods, that'll be the best thing to help you make friends all over the world. There're friends to be made everywhere, it's just hard to find them, and things only lineup at the right time.
Solo tienes una vida, aprovechala. Como ya los dijo : ejercicio, estudios, experiencias neuvas(si puedes). Cuando llegas (y todos vamos a lograrlo), olvidas la vida pasada.