Lafcadio said:
You aren't special in that regard. Humans are deeply complex beings, shaped by innumerable factors, many of them so immeasurably minute that they are unknown to even the self.
We were all teenagers once. You'll move past all this and at worst your time on e621 will just be an uncomfortable memory of the person you once were.

I'm going to stop because you're just coming up with random shit.