@fly_you_fools: what is wrong?

Odisaodi said:
@fly_you_fools: what is wrong?

I've had anxiety for years but never thought of myself as having anxiety. I'm too chill and gregarious for that, right? But it's gotten so bad and my buddy who I've had a crush on/been in love with since I was 15 said I must have anxiety and it all made sense. I just saw said (very straight) buddy after FOUR YEARS and I hadn't realized just how crushingly lonely I'd become since March. I can't even explain here how complex our relationship is. There's so much messed up crap.