@bipface: To be clear to everyone I'm not talking about my birth mom and dad. They died when I was really little. These motherfuckers were half-foster parents to me as I was staying with them a few hours a day and living in the group home I grew up in. I wasn't allowed to stay with them because firstly they did not have a license to keep a disabled kid of my severity and secondly I would not agree to adoption to override that policy.

I was orphaned and didn't feel comfortable suddenly having parents but they always told me they loved me as their real child. And I believed them too. I just didn't want to be another "part of the system." (Or fail as one as I inevitablly did.)

G0wther said:
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ah that's a shame
but yeah, seems quite thoughtless of them to toss you aside like that
especially since you've clearly been delt a bad hand in life