Man, I sorely misjudged erotica. Like, I realize it's something people actually put a lot of care in.
I'm not talking about effort spent shading and detailing, but how people put their soul into creating them. How everything that was drawn, every stories written, and every OCs created are the products of passion. Like, the amount of effort people make for other people to see these stuff. They'll spend time, effort, and money to do all that. There are circles of people with likewise interests where they trade artworks and construct a little universe to play with.
I feel guilty for merely thinking of these as just some material to mindlessly entertain yourself at the end of a hard day.
I feel guilty for showing up on the internet just "to make porn" and not "to make art".
I do want to socialize with people in some communities to share my stories and fantasies. It's just I suck at RP and too broke to give commissions.