Quite the depressive episodes in the blips today. Even I'm having it.

I shouldn't have bitten more than I can chew. I'm getting less and less confident I'd be able to finish my projects in a timely manner. See, not having a deadline doesn't make me feel good because I'm just gonna be lazy and feel bad about not doing anything. But, having a deadline gives me anxiety. And now, there's money at stake. It doesn't help that I'm working for people I genuinely try to keep good relations with.

Is this what having a job feels like? I've never even considered what I'm gonna do after I finish college. As far as planning goes, this is the only thing I've ever thought of doing long term. And I suck at it.

I'm probably gonna close it immediately after I'm done with this one. I'm already more than happy if I can make people horny. I forgot why wanted to I start in the first place.