@Seiko_ESTO:
As someone who was raised by a conservative family in a very religious nation, I have to say, that's a feeling I know too damn well. I don't have the freedom to express my own sexuality in the real world because there's a genuine threat here. That is to say, I am able to do that, but the consequences would be beyond what I can take. I know I won't stay on their good list if I told them. There's still the opportunity to share what I feel on the internet. I just have to hope that they don't find me here. Unfortunately, I don't have the solution for you, as I struggle with it myself. But just know that we're fighting the same battle here. If anything, you might fare better because there may still be a chance that your close ones will have the tolerance.