sometimes I wonder if I really want to be the only person in on a joke and then I think about how I built the base of my online identity around a reference that no one within the community it would have been aimed towards even got. also, like 2/3rds+ of my pre-baked responses to anything are quotes from obsucre old web cartoons and YouTube videos that might not exist anymore. and that reminds me that I don't think I really care.