@KynikossDragonn: Numbness CAN be better than feeling even happiness and bliss, to this I personally agree. However, I actually used to take meds that made me numb, and I felt at the time that it just wasn't for me.

Even though now I would give what little I have to feel nothing but void again... Anything to get rid of the pain.

On the point of nihilism though, I have always felt that nothing matters and that both life and death are pointless, regardless of emotional numbness, happiness or desparity. No matter what state I have been in at any time that core believe has always remained with me, and I continue to believe it 100%.