Notice the numerous amount of fruit being flung and people being hit in the background.

If I did I'd raise ocean levels. So I think it's better for everyone if I didn't.

I don't cry, I metal scream.

Or I just make music, that helps.

Wholesome meme. (If one can even call it a meme?)

markx said:
;-; :'v

;:v ?

i wanna pet it.

gunner_24 said:
;:v ?

',:(

do_you_see_jay said:
Notice the numerous amount of fruit being flung and people being hit in the background.

I think its the their story. It looks like they were bullied then they got away while the same fruit was being thrown at them, they then found a bulbisaur who taught them the same ideology.

I've been trying, but my body won't fucking let me!

No need. I know how to kill my emotions completely for a time. I don't mean ignore them, I mean they shut off entirely. It's a....unique experience. And all that horrid 'weight' you feel with sorrow or depression just....evaporates. It literally feels as if 20 pounds have been physically lifted from your shoulders. Of course, this makes normal human interaction difficult since I feel NOTHING while that state of mind lasts, but since I don't really have friends anyway that's not really a problem for me.

worldwalker128 said:
No need. I know how to kill my emotions completely for a time. I don't mean ignore them, I mean they shut off entirely. It's a....unique experience. And all that horrid 'weight' you feel with sorrow or depression just....evaporates. It literally feels as if 20 pounds have been physically lifted from your shoulders. Of course, this makes normal human interaction difficult since I feel NOTHING while that state of mind lasts, but since I don't really have friends anyway that's not really a problem for me.

Woah.

worldwalker128 said:
No need. I know how to kill my emotions completely for a time. I don't mean ignore them, I mean they shut off entirely. It's a....unique experience. And all that horrid 'weight' you feel with sorrow or depression just....evaporates. It literally feels as if 20 pounds have been physically lifted from your shoulders. Of course, this makes normal human interaction difficult since I feel NOTHING while that state of mind lasts, but since I don't really have friends anyway that's not really a problem for me.

You wanna talk with somebody? Emotional well-being is extremely important

gay_horny_fur56 said:

You wanna talk with somebody? Emotional well-being is extremely important

No. I appreciate the sentiment, but quite frankly even though I'm certainly not happy at least I'm not miserable, and 'talking to someone' normally involves paying someone to listen and then them giving an educated opinion on why I think and feel the way I do. I need the little money I have and anything that a shrink could tell me I already know.
As for not having friends that's more due to me being a social hermit. I don't normally get close to people. It's not so much a matter of things that happened over the course of my life due to this-or-that but simply a lack of interest in making friends. I find more enjoyment reading or playing video games than I do talking to most people. If you've seen any of the other comments i leave around this site I crack alot of dumb jokes and do so as much for my amusement as others. That's enough. But thanks.

worldwalker128 said:
No. I appreciate the sentiment, but quite frankly even though I'm certainly not happy at least I'm not miserable, and 'talking to someone' normally involves paying someone to listen and then them giving an educated opinion on why I think and feel the way I do. I need the little money I have and anything that a shrink could tell me I already know.
As for not having friends that's more due to me being a social hermit. I don't normally get close to people. It's not so much a matter of things that happened over the course of my life due to this-or-that but simply a lack of interest in making friends. I find more enjoyment reading or playing video games than I do talking to most people. If you've seen any of the other comments i leave around this site I crack alot of dumb jokes and do so as much for my amusement as others. That's enough. But thanks.

Me up until about 18 months ago. Not a good time of my life to say the least...

:)

worldwalker128 said:
No need. I know how to kill my emotions completely for a time. I don't mean ignore them, I mean they shut off entirely. It's a....unique experience. And all that horrid 'weight' you feel with sorrow or depression just....evaporates. It literally feels as if 20 pounds have been physically lifted from your shoulders. Of course, this makes normal human interaction difficult since I feel NOTHING while that state of mind lasts, but since I don't really have friends anyway that's not really a problem for me.

Same except I have f*cking siblings and a few friends I trust yet all I feel is hate and anger at the guy who by just a few more % would've recked my like.
GODAMN high school is A BÍTCH

worldwalker128 said:
No. I appreciate the sentiment, but quite frankly even though I'm certainly not happy at least I'm not miserable, and 'talking to someone' normally involves paying someone to listen and then them giving an educated opinion on why I think and feel the way I do. I need the little money I have and anything that a shrink could tell me I already know.
As for not having friends that's more due to me being a social hermit. I don't normally get close to people. It's not so much a matter of things that happened over the course of my life due to this-or-that but simply a lack of interest in making friends. I find more enjoyment reading or playing video games than I do talking to most people. If you've seen any of the other comments i leave around this site I crack alot of dumb jokes and do so as much for my amusement as others. That's enough. But thanks.

i understand the sentiment, really i do, but even in the absence of professional help (which is hard to get even if you have the money for it, taking up to several months because there aren't enough psychologists in the world.) getting some help from even just friends and talking about your issues is a massive help. more importantly however, what you are doing is suppressing feelings which i guarantee that your mental health is taking damage because of it, even if you don't feel like that is the case.

lecoltas said:
i understand the sentiment, really i do, but even in the absence of professional help (which is hard to get even if you have the money for it, taking up to several months because there aren't enough psychologists in the world.) getting some help from even just friends and talking about your issues is a massive help. more importantly however, what you are doing is suppressing feelings which i guarantee that your mental health is taking damage because of it, even if you don't feel like that is the case.

You know that song 'pain without love'? In the song he says: "I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all." I'm of the opposite. I'd rather feel nothing at all than the pain I was going through 3 years ago that led to me beginning to shut off my emotions in the first place. Up until then in my life I'd never felt that AWFUL for ENTIRE MONTHS straight and it was destroying me mentally and emotionally. It's rare that I feel anything strongly positive or negative, and that agony was crushing and I had no idea how to deal with it. I could have turned to drugs or alcohol. I could have turned to living a highly irresponsible promiscuous life. I could have joined some weird cult. I could have done any number of bad-for-my-health-and-mind-and-wallet things...but I didn't. Instead I turned to a kind of...let's call it a meditation- I'd read about in a book. It's no exaggeration to say it saved my life.

Look, I don't mean to be rude but you know nothing about what led up to that point, you don't know the people and problems in everyday-life that I have to put up with on a regular basis (and I just don't have the time to stop and take a breath very often anymore). Much like someone that uses weed to deal with arthritis, this is how I cope with my existence (at least for the time being).

Maybe I am taking damage, maybe I'm not. All I know is that without me using this state of mind when it is needed, I'd probably have gone actually insane. On a side note I do intend when I am able to request a leave of absence from work for two months and just relax. It, like many other things I've got on the back-burner, is going to have to wait awhile but I'll get to it when I can.

worldwalker128 said:
You know that song 'pain without love'? In the song he says: "I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all." I'm of the opposite. I'd rather feel nothing at all than the pain I was going through 3 years ago that led to me beginning to shut off my emotions in the first place...

...Maybe I am taking damage, maybe I'm not. All I know is that without me using this state of mind when it is needed, I'd probably have gone actually insane. On a side note I do intend when I am able to request a leave of absence from work for two months and just relax. It, like many other things I've got on the back-burner, is going to have to wait awhile but I'll get to it when I can.

Considering what I know about mental health, that's not meditation, it's called dissociation and it's a (rather unhealthy) coping mechanism for various forms of pain, trauma, and other mental problems. While we don't know what you went through, you still should try and seek some sort of help. That sort of dissociation can and will leave lasting damage, and while it can certainly help in the moment to prevent someone from reaching mental breakdown, it is a solution that's very temporary for issues that last for decades. Respectfully, it is best for you to try and find some sort of help. Good luck out there.

And show weakness? Never.

markx said:
;-; :'v

markx said:
why dislikes? I did not say anything bad damn haters

yo wtf is with the dislikes

mr_auger said:
And show weakness? Never.

In this one comment I already see weakness. You are literally leaving a vulnerability in yourself that someone else can manipulate. I know it’s been 11 months, but I just hope that you haven’t stuck to that ideology, I would hate for someone else to go through such a pain without opening up at all. In fact, proper treatment is nearly impossible if you don’t truly express yourself. What I’m just saying is that, well, that is a terrible phrase to go by.

worldwalker128 said:
… Look, I don't mean to be rude but you know nothing about what led up to that point, you don't know the people and problems in everyday-life that I have to put up with on a regular basis (and I just don't have the time to stop and take a breath very often anymore)…

thedragonrider said:
Considering what I know about mental health, that's not meditation, it's called dissociation and it's a (rather unhealthy) coping mechanism for various forms of pain, trauma, and other mental problems…

I think something just clicked, but I can’t be sure…

sp1d3r said:
In this one comment I already see weakness. You are literally leaving a vulnerability in yourself that someone else can manipulate. I know it’s been 11 months, but I just hope that you haven’t stuck to that ideology, I would hate for someone else to go through such a pain without opening up at all. In fact, proper treatment is nearly impossible if you don’t truly express yourself. What I’m just saying is that, well, that is a terrible phrase to go by.

Nah I was just trying to be silly. I am vulnerable and open up to people, but only that I really trust deeply. I've had a lot of bad experiences with opening up to people in the past , in which I'm backstabbed in one way or the other. It's alright though, I appreciate your care