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Day 0

We’ve just initiated the jump from Gjrana II back to Brallü. Our mission was successful, with our presence, the Gjrana navy successfully curbed the pirate threat.

This is my second jump, still feeling a bit nervous. Can’t wait to see Amme again though!! Told Grünza I was hoping we would arrive in time so I can celebrate Tindriam with her but he reminded me that for the outside ‘world’, only a couple of seconds will pass. I know the concept but can’t wrap my head around it still. Should be 6-7 days for us.

Heard it’s a common issue most crew can’t really get familiar with. Though it’s kind of an euphoric moment when they arrive and realise they missed out on nothing.

We did the usual prepping before the jump; hull check, sensor pit check, cooled down the reactor to the minimum level. The main gun batteries have also been shut down for now so I don’t have much to do; other than the standard chores. Got some books, though I can’t focus out of excitement. Wish the outside view screens were on, really wonder what the stasis field looks like.
Enzzelmaiz described it as a bubble of ionised gas, the same stuff that causes the gate haze after arriving. Basically the outermost layer of the hull, thin as a scale, gets vaporised and ionised and forms a layer around the ship. Odraani warships have anodes on them to provide extra plasma for additional stability … or something like that.

We have all we need here; plenty of food, ways of entertainment and exercise, and the showers and rec rooms are fitted with sunlamps and there are supplements just in case. Best of all, I got the other guys’ company here.

Thinking I should take some photos
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Day 1

Such a weird feeling; we do things as usual yet everything, it all feels different? Maybe it’s just not seeing the stars.

Medolovonza put some glow in the dark stars on her bunk’s walls when we set off; love that idea; will ask her for some if she has any. Gotta ask if the other shifts are fine with it though.

The others shared some stories about their jumps, Enzzelmaiz had 8 jumps so far, Kazal had 8, Grünza had 6, and this is Bei’s and Medolovonza’s second jump as well.

Most of their stories were reassuring to hear; more like a vacation than active duty; not much to do so they got creative killing time. Made me ease up a bit
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Day 5

Finally won something at döal! Was more luck than skill, but now I’m 2000 meir richer! Won’t risk losing it, will spend it when I get home.
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Day 7

Last day of the trip! We got served some hanzalüni. Heard of it, never had it before. The guys liked it, but it really didn’t work for me; gave mine to Grünza and Kazal for their cav mixes.

Medolovonza brought some sour chocolate for the trip, said it's a delicacy in Düsman
Was absolutely delicious!
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Day 8

Still in the stasis field; had the idea of it taking longer in the back of my mind so I’m not that bothered. Heck, at least I can finish shedding.
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Day 14

Still here. Makes me wonder, how does the navigation crew know when we will arrive?

Kanpiu Üdsali made a few announcements, telling us we may have experienced an unforeseen gravity pull and we might take five months to arrive.

The crew didn’t take it too well, some guys got detained for making a mess in one of the dining areas.

The rest of us are still doing the daily routine and chores, cleaning, doing laundry, writing reports about everything - even though the main guns are powered down
Kept doing the usual drills, had gravity drive fail drill the other day, which went well, but the blackout one not so much, the emergency repair crew went way overtime.

Most of the guys in the quarter have started keeping a journal
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Day 26

It was Medolovonza’s birthday
We got her arran nut roasted crab by trading stuff with the flight deck guys.The crab leg was freezer burnt, think the cooks were happy to get rid of it
Even managed to get her a day off duty for the evening.

Still, it makes me wonder.

I don’t really know how this works .. few seconds pass outside but months here?
Does that mean you can technically catch up with your parents? No wonder they limit jump gate travel for personnel
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Day 40

Had the last of the perishable meals today, will miss meat. Cooks will be prepping dry-mix rations and canned veggies from now on.
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Day 41

Dry-mix rations are not that bad. Had a lot of stuff like at school this when I was a kid
Enzzelmaiz is struggling a bit, he had a fish only diet before.
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Day 61

Kanpiu Üdsali spoke on the intercom that they’ll be rolling out new activities for all of the crew to keep us busy.
Book club
Art corner. (Wondered about the supplies, was told they’ll be using office stuff, and diluted hull paint)
Music hall
Theatre
Language lessons
Meditation sessions

Think I’ll take the music one, could start learning an instrument; always wanted but never got the time. Now all we have is time! How awesome would it be to give a serenade to Amme??
Grünza went to meditate, I honestly didn’t expect him to pick that. Bei and Enzzelmaiz went to the book club. Kazal went to learn basic Walzan - his brother lives in Waüalza. Medolovonza instead volunteered for the life support maintenance crew.
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Day 74

Kazal thought about introducing a card game he learned from a classmate during his language lessons. It was basically about the process of elimination, to find a spy. There was a limited amount of rounds to get the right person without taking out too many of your teammates.
Had a blast that night; thought Enzzelmaiz would be best at it but Grünza read people like open books.
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Day 83

Grünza is acting a bit strange; gone quiet and spaces out a lot. Tried to talk to him but he blamed the food? I just hope he will be okay. He’s been prone to mood swings for as long as I've known him.

Enzzelmaiz is adjusting well to the meals. Seems more energised now. Bei helped him with a trick to squeeze some water out from the meals, that way the texture feels more like what he is used to.
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Day 87

Met with a junior officer called Hin; navigator. Weird to see officers mingle with the crew but I guess they are getting bored too. He’s a pretty sweet guy, has a ex-husband in Eldrenkrözno. It’s a small world I swear. Speaks with a cute mirli accent.
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Day 98

Hin asked me to sit as a model for one of those art classes - told me I have a characteristic snout! - felt a bit nervous about it but it went really well; there were 21 crew in that class; I recognized faces from engineering, the flight deck as well as a girl from ammo storage, both officers and servicemen. Always amazed how much hidden talent is laying around.

Hin’s picture was pretty amazing!
Asked the class if I could scan their drawings to show them to Amme. Most agreed though some were a bit shy about theirs and declined
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Day 101

Invited Hin for Kazal’s spy card game. He didn’t do too well, bless him, but seemed to have fun Grünza opted out this time, went to exercise in the gym instead.
Day 158

Forgot to write for almost two months?

Grünza seems to be feeling better! He started filming around the ship, in the mess hall, the common room, in our quarters and so on. Thought the intelligence guys will have an issue with this but they just told him to only film the common areas and it should be fine, and of course a review at the end.
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Day 161

Toilets on the D wing broke down; gotta go to the E wing now. Showers are still fine though
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Day 202

Accidentally saw Medolovonza and Kazal in the shower, “kissing”. He’s been courting her for a while but she’s always been very coy about it. Always thought they’d make a cute couple.
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Day 215

Getting better at playing the hrandzu! Can play a few simple songs with barely missing any notes. Grünza took a video of me playing

Medolovonza sung for me while I played, we made a damn good duo, but sadly Grünza ran out of batteries mid way through

Will need to try again and record it.
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Day 234

Food is getting a bit boring. There are 5 different meals they serve so it's not that bad. I miss meat. Canned veggies just taste of salt. Getting supplements to avoid sail-sickness
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Day 241

Celebrated Bei’s birthday today. Was a modest thing. He really seemed to enjoy the attention though.
Medolovonza and I asked for some favours in the kitchen earlier that day; they made a sweet version of a dry-mix after the gang offered their sugar rations; some charamel cakelets. Was really good given the limitations.
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Day 284

Not much left from this year … I keep going to sleep hoping to wake up in Brallü. Grünza is acting a bit weird again, kind of disconnected? Tried to talk with him but he said he was fine, just tired.

Kazal, Medolovonza have also gotten silent for the most part and they never used to shut up.
Especially Kazal, he always had a snarky remark for everything. Now he ignores the best opportunities as well. Hope nothing has gotten between them.
Poor Bei has been miserable too, has two kids who just started school a week before we jumped.

Enzzelmaiz reminded Bei that his children are still the same age; he didn’t miss out on anything about their lives, only a second or two has passed. This kind of helped him feel better. Talked a lot afterwards about family. Think he needed a little time out as he offered to make us tea afterwards.

Miss the days of us just hanging out in the out quarters, playing cards, talking about dumb things.
Nobody acts the same now, maybe Enzzelmaiz but he is distant in general.

Hanging out with Hin a bit more recently. He is taking this really well, he did mention once he doesn’t really have close relatives, but a bunch of pen-pals, and he spends most of life travelling. Got me curious about that lifestyle. Maybe once I finish service, Amme and I could go on a road trip?
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Day 320

Any day now.
Wish we had a clue when.
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Day 321

A year in stasis
My second trip and likely the last; won’t be allowed to board a jumping ship for 11 years.
At least we’ll be in our home system.

People who took up dance and music held a little concert today; with a play ending it.
I hoped I could take part but I got nervous. The dance was a bit awkward but the play was really nice. They performed Hru-Ann-Krizghin. Sounded familiar but don’t remember seeing it.

Hin confessed he took interest in me. I told him I'm married. Felt guilty for upsetting him, reminded him that our friendship is still something I deeply cherish.
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Day 393

Grünza has been mumbling to himself a lot, as if his boyfriend was in the room with him.
I told this at the infirmary but the nurses said it’s all too familiar. The worst cases are getting pills but they have to ration them.

Hin said he can put him on a priority list for a checkup later this week. Haven’t seen him much, think he took my rejection personally. Miss our long talks.
Kazal is doing better but not sure … he went back to his snappy behaviour but his remarks are a bit more mean spirited now?
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Day 424

Found Medolovonza crying in the shower. she said she wanted to go home
I comforted her, told her I'm there if she wants to talk. She spoke about missing the feeling of a breeze, and the sun’s warmth. The sunlamp and the mist from the shower didn’t help. Had a nice conversation about the regions we grew up in. She grew up by the lake, sailed ans fished a lot.

She didn’t report for this evening’s roll call. Some MPs are searching for her now.
Worried about her
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Day 427

Got food mild poisoning
Wasn’t the only one; some dry-mix may have gotten mould.

No clue where Medolovonza is. Hope it’s just her needing privacy to clear her head.
Asked a barrack overseer not to punish her if she returns, he promised he’ll do anything in his power.

Bei and Kazal volunteered for the search party. The rest of us weren't allowed.
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Day 428

Still nothing … I’m fearing the worst.
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Day 429

They found Medolovonza’s body in the rear storage area. Hung herself. Still had a headset on her with a cassette player looping noises of wind-blown fields

The guys are devastated.
Bei has shut down and was sent to the infirmary to be supervised. Kazal looked like he was about to explode. I tried to comfort him but he lashed out.

Kazal wrecked a vending machine, got sent to a solitary cell for a few days.
The quarters are feeling empty, Enzzelmaiz has gone silent and Grünza is mumbling a lot.
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Day 439

Still trying to get used to seeing Medolovonza’s bunk empty. We collected a few of her things to be sent to her family once we arrive. She had two little brothers.

Fuck
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Day 441

Had a dream with Amme and Medolovonza
We had lunch together, it was Ammes parents' old place in the bay. I didn’t know Medolovonza when they still had that house but in the dream it felt natural
We talked about setting up a video cartridge rental business which was random, but it was nice to see them smile.
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Day 483

Some of the crew decided to set up a hydroponic farm in the front storage area. The quartermaster was dismissive as we still have plenty of food and air scrubbers, but the Kanpiu overwrote her refusal, saying it might be a good activity for the crew to work on something productive.

She’s still kind of an ass about it, but I think it’s part of the job for quartermasters.
Think I’ll volunteer to help. Hin will too. Not sure how to feel about it, but he assured he’ll pick a different shift than I

We are using plastic food tubs, cooling fans and a waterpump from the spares storage, and sunlamps of lights
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Day 517

The hydroponics have seemingly helped the crew morale a little. Bei joined too, haven’t seen him smile in a while. Enzzelmaiz is doing extra hours in the engineering deck.

Medolovonza would have loved this, always had a knack for plants.
I miss her.
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Day 642

Second year

Another concert and play. Was nice to have some fresh veggies for dinner, that even swung some of the initial sceptics to help in the farm.

Kazal fucking freaked the hell out of me. Spent all night sitting at the table in our quarters and just stared ahead blankly. I tried to get on hold of someone in the infirmary but they were overwhelmed. 136 people committed suicide or murder suicide that night. Some others were reported missing as well.

By morning he seemed to have snapped out of it. There was something unsettling about his eyes. He lost some weight so maybe that’s why?
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Day 731

There are likely more bodies they haven't found yet; there's a faint smell of rot coming from the vents every now and then
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Day 812

Grünza and Kazal spend their time sleeping mostly, even got disciplined for missing duties. Bei is hanging out with another group. Mostly family people, sharing stories about their children. Seems to help him.

Enzzelmaiz is reading a lot, started writing his own book, a crime mystery. Told me about the premise, was pretty interesting

I haven’t played my hrandzu in a long while; the music hall has been shut down as most of the people stopped attending.

Never got to record that duett.
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Day 839

Orders came out today to start rationing the food. That made most of the guys uneasy … I thought we had supplies for up to 4 years without needing to ration. I’m worried.
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Day 942

Close to three years now … feels like ten.
Most of the crew looks like shit; the hard rationing made us lose weight. We are getting supplements to help with the lack of sunlight and other nutrients but everyone looks pale and faded. The sunlamps in the shower are not enough.
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Day 963

Three years.
Small concert, another play.
There were a lot of empty seats in the common room.

Found Bei crying in his bed, tried to comfort him.

I just realised I’m starting to forget how Amme sounds. She wanted to send a voice message but it didn’t arrive in time before we jumped
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Day 1067

Kanpiu Üdsali rolled out an energy and water rationing initiative. He sounded troubled. Forgot a few but
Weapon systems have been hard-disengaged. No more work for me
Lights being dimmed
Gravity being lowered in non-habitat areas.
No more personal computer use in the common room - this has caused a small riot as that's where most of the crew kept their personal logs and letters from family. Üdsali promised to print out said letters which calmed down most of them
As for the water, no laundry, shower only once a week, no flush after peeing, and lowered water pressure. Water treatment is top priority.
Asked Enzzelmaiz how long the energy fuel rods should last. He told me the issue is not with the fuel, but cooling. We can’t extend the cooling wings nor eject heat pellets, so they need to minimise the reactor output. Reason we need to ration only now is because the cooling system has degraded and they can’t do external repairs.

Asked how long this way things will last and he nonchalantly replied 10 years.
The idea of energy being a problem made me feel a bit sick.

Found some comfort in Hin’s company, I think he felt the same. Talking to him made me smile again after a long time.
We kinda tried to go a bit further, we kissed. It was nice, been years.

Felt guilty afterwards. He understood.
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Day 1089

The smell of piss is everywhere; people can't flush properly. Need to plug my nose when entering the restroom, but the air is still stinging my eyes and throat

Asked about respirators, the quartermaster thought I was joking till he entered with me.
Now there's a couple hanging by the door.
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Day 1210

The infirmary is running out of medicine; no supplements nor anxiety relief. The only stuff they have left is for treating injuries. Some guys got caught stealing them to get high so they posted more guards.

Contraceptives are running low too. Shit.
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Day 1224

Kazal attacked a junior officer in the mess hall. Stabbed her in the eye and throat sixteen times with a broken plastic spoon. She died almost right away. She was a drannzü, like Amme.

I haven’t seen a dead body in my life. Only roadkill
Her lifeless body leaning on the canteen table, blood pooling in her food tray
She was chatting to a fellow officer when Kazal attacked her. Smiling too. Maybe she heard a joke.

No clue why he did it. He didn’t say anything.
I hope she didn’t suffer much.

They sedated Kazal and locked him up.
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Day 1225

Security took Kazal’s personal stuff to investigate.
They say he’s unresponsive
Sometimes calm then suddenly having violent outbursts.
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Day 1231

They found Kazal’s body in the cell this morning; cracked his head open on the door
Will never know why he murdered the officer.

Neither Bei and Grünza looked shocked, almost like they didn’t even register it.

Security says they’ll interview us about his recent behaviour.

Learned the officer’s name was Tallaua

Had a chat with Enzzelmaiz, he knew I needed someone to talk about this. He seemed really supportive, even felt a bit out of character for him.

Grünza has been talking to himself more and more, I have to plug my ears when we sleep.
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Day 1262

Stricter rationing policies, water treatment output halved, vent fans off; the warm reactor coolant warms up our quarters to an uncomfortable level.
The air is stale now, I don't feel smells any more, but there's a small haze when looking down the corridor. Lots of dust too. Was told its skin cells.

Makes me retch

Hearing news of crews fighting, suicides every day. There are more and more empty seats in the mess hall in our wing. Heard that the A and C wings are faring better than us.
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Day 1284

New year. 4th one
This is never going to end

The corridors are nightmarish, dimly lit, dusty, and you see silhouettes of people occasionally

They separated the men from the women in some wings as attacks increased. I still hear a lot of stories
What the fuck are we becoming.

I asked if they could move Grünza to the infirmary.
Officers declined saying they are at full capacity.

Tried to talk to him like I would to a child. Worked a little. Bei looked at me weird when I did, I think I tore open some wounds in him. I’m so sorry.
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Day 1445

Only one restroom is working any more, the cisterns got blocked or something
Some just shit in the corner of the showers.
I see stains on the walls and hallways. Either dry faeces or blood. There’s not enough water to clean any more.

People use dirty bed sheets to wipe themselves. Some guys were caught using dirty uniforms and got severely punished.

Can’t eat the D rations any more, it's a brown sludge. Makes me retch.
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Day 1484

Grünza died.
Suffocated in his sleep.
I think Bei did it.

Feels like it was mercy. He had clear moments every now and then, which made it ever worse when he was lost.

He was a kind man. Had a boyfriend at home.

We didn’t do anything to deserve this.
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Day 1494

Bei told us about a rumour he heard. Said this could be a test by the Odraani Intelligence on how long term isolation affects us, and that we’ve been in Brallü for 4 years now.

Enzzelmaiz laughed at him, saying its nonsense. If we were in a test they wouldn’t lock up a higher ups inside and we’d be reviewed regularly, not to mention in that case the reactor output would be maintained at normal levels or they could have just used a smaller, cheap vessel, not a dreadnought worth billions.
I trust him on this, he works in electric engineering afterall. Knows more about slinggates than both of us combined

Bei got quite annoyed, stating we are not the control test, we are one of the ‘anomalies’ where some issue is introduced, like a reactor issue

Enzzelmaiz doesn’t take him seriously; which is more likely? A navigational mistake or a big experiment where we are being observed and monitored all the time. Putting it that way, he is right.

We should focus on staying sane and healthy
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Day 1501

Feeling awful .. what if Bei is right? That would mean time is flowing normally… I missed out almost five years. Amme surely thinks I’m dead. Hope she found someone she is happy with

Enzzelmaiz saw me and tried to reassure Bei is just trying to make sense of this situation. In his own way … people’s minds were not meant to live in situations like this, isolation and time distortion.
We are in stasis still and only a few seconds have passed for Amme. She is still there. Must hang onto that thought. There’s even a small chance that she is thinking of me during those few seconds of travel, meaning I’ve been on her mind the whole time we’ve been here.

His calm nature helped me to relax. I know he has to remind himself every now and then as well
Bei seems to be unable to grasp the concept. Keeps talking about how his daughters are in fourth grade now, ending preschool soon and that his wife must have remarried by now.
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Day 1511

Spending more time in hydroponics, work keeps my mind from wandering. Not to mention the air also feels fresher here

Never occurred to me where they got the seeds. Was told the canned food has seeds in them and they were still good to plant. Since then we started growing all sort of stuff, algae, mushrooms, moss and so on.
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Day 1516

Bei and Enzzelmaiz are arguing a lot

He is becoming less and less credible as there a lot of things even he can’t explain
Or just leaves the quarters when asked a question.

That made me think … sounds nuts but that would explain so many things; even Enzzelmaiz admitted he never heard of a jump stasis longer than a year and a half.
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Day 1521

Enzzelmaiz requested to move bunks to a different section
Got granted.

He said he is tired of Bei’s nonsense and hostility. That it was Bei’s right to think whatever but he should leave him and others alone.
Asked me to do the same and leave Bei behind but I couldn’t do it. Can’t leave a friend behind
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Day 1545

Bei introduced a guy from maintenance, he said he overheard officers talking about ‘running a test’ Other guys also confirmed it.

Fucking hell. Bei could be right
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Day 1558

All the supply elevators are broken now. Makes further repairs even harder, can’t get some parts up from storage.
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Day 1583

Had a talk with the other guys who have the same theory
Shared some evidence they found. Logs, weird inventories, one of them even saw a maintenance guy messing with a window screen.

Dranza, a guy from the flight deck, told us he found a camera in the vents in his quarters but couldn't remove it. Showed us a drawing of it and it did look like a camera lens. Short tube with glass in it
Will search the quarters for anything weird

Didn’t find anything.
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Day 1605

Year 5
Thought they would end the test today
I skipped the play, wandered around the halls.
A sub-lieutenant caught me but he let me go with a verbal warning
He looked like shit too; dirty wrinkled uniform. Looked tired and sad.
Would the Odraani really treat their officers like this? I don’t know what to think
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Day 1681

One of the guys made a scene, shouting he knows this is a test and we are the lab rats
The MP took him away in record time.
Shit
Bei is right
They know

Hin must be on it too. He played with me like a toy.
Enzzelmaiz refused to talk to me about this. Asked me to leave him be.
He is either part of this or is in denial
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Day 1702

IT HAPPENED
Amme. Fresh food. Fresh air. Fresh water. Clean clothes. The sun. I can feel it.

We are getting out of here finally.

Üdsali made an announcement about some crew quarters relocation, to even the load on the grid. We had enough.

All five barracks broke out in riot. Security came into ours but they were overwhelmed soon after.
Alarms went off, non combat personnel were told to evacuate the vicinity.

Took the barracks, flight deck, and the storage in the first few hours. Some of the security joined, got proper arms. Most of them surrendered, they and the crew who didn’t take part were locked up in one of the storage rooms.

I saw them take Enzzelmaiz too, he was badly beaten. Lost his glasses.

By the end of the day we secured all the outer decks. They took on a hard fight but managed to drive them to the inner decks. Lots of casualties, even with much of the security on our side
The bridge went under lockdown and sealed the doors shut. Üdsali promised us a lenient punishment if we surrender and hand over the ones who killed any crew.

Tried to cut through the doors but not even the hull cutters did it. Decided to wait and starve them out.
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Day 1721

Still nothing. Üdsali keeps making announcements for peace. He sounds tired.
No wonder, they can’t restock food.
Everyone is getting inpatient. Questioned the captives, some decided to join us. Some went on a hunger strike.
Saw Enzzelmaiz the other day, the way he looked at me was gutting.

We managed to shut off water for the bridge.
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Day 1742

Bridge finally decided to surrender to us. Üdsali asked not to hurt the junior officers and other servicemen.

About 160 officers, security and other crew were caught. Some of the higher ups got lynched when they emerged including Üdsali. Lüanözza wanted him alive but the crew was too worked up to listen.
I saw his body, but it didn’t really look like him, bloody and swollen, clothes torn off, even lost a horn.

Part of us went to search the ship’s logs, the other half went to interrogate the captives. I went with the search party. Found a whole bunch of bodies, died of hunger or thirst.

I saw Hin among them.
I thought he was a good man.
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Day 1746

It's been days but they haven't found anything relating to our experiment in the records room or bridge. Must have wiped everything clean.

The interrogation isn’t going well either. Most of them die or just break mentally before they say anything, denying the experiment. How deep does this go?

Was told to help with a junior shift assistant from the gunnery. Didn’t recognise him. Must have been night shift. I agreed to be there because Jansé took charge.
He went a different method. Instead of beating he tried to go on an emotional route. Asked about name, where is he from, his family and if he wants to see them again, that told him we all want to go home
It kinda worked?
He told us he has a mother and sister he needs to care for. Jansé told him if he contacts the research lab, we will leave the other captives be, can finally all go home and he can see his mother again.
The officer broke down crying begging us to understand we are not in a test of any kind and we are still in a stasis field, that the only way we can go home is if we work together.
It went on for a bit. I felt bad for him, he seemed desperate.
Lüanözza got annoyed and shot him in the head with an officer sidearm
They are powerful
Skull blown open like an egg, collapsed on itself, brains spilling out. I threw up. I know he was a shill but shit. I’m still not good with this.

Having nightmares.
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Day 1751

Heard that a comms operator admitted to this!!!! She asked to be escorted to the radio room to establish a connection so long she was promised no harm. Jansé promised.
Tried for two hours but got no response. Lüanözza got impatient and shot her while she was on air to emphasise the situation. Added his own message and ended the broadcast.

Luckily I wasn’t there, but I’ve seen the blood stains and heard the recording. Brutal.

Lüanözza and Jansé are getting on worse terms. The group is kind of split.
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Day 1759

Heard gunshots echo through the ship the past few days.
Thought it was Lüanözza executing hostages but the shots came from different sections.
Think it’s us shooting at each other.
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Day 1772

Most of the captives are dead, apart from a few hostages.
Haven’t seen Enzzelmaiz in the storage room for days now. I think he is gone.
I wish I could have talked to him for one last time, maybe convince him to join us.

Jansé is dead, along with his men. Lüanözza is in charge but nobody trusts him.

We’ve been stacking the bodies in the ammo storage. It has the best sealing doors and self contained venting.

Was told to help with dragging the corpses. Something just popped into my head … what the fuck have we done.
These people were alive a few months before, spoke with some of them at lunch
Knew some of them.
Seen them in the art corners, performing at new years eve.
Did we do the right thing? Did Kazal know something we didn’t?

Had to be the right thing. We have families to go home to.
We are good people
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Day 1824

Haven’t been able to sleep much since the mutiny happened.
Maybe the officers were forced to carry out the experiment?

Yeah gotta be it; why else would they be so reluctant to help us?

No response from the outside yet.
It’s eerie here. Quiet.

Feels like a never ending bad dream.
This can’t be happening.
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Day 1853

Bei seems devastated they didn't let us go .. I feel the same

What kind of fucked up test is this?
We turned on one of the window screens to see outside but it was just the blue glow Enzzelmaiz mentioned back then. It’s likely just a video feed played on loop though.

Some guys from engineering had an idea. Could open a reactor refuelling airlock.
Makes me wonder why they didn't try it before. Lüanozza reluctantly approved of the idea.

Gazza told me the reason they took a while is because the ship is on hard jump lockdown and it takes an expert to undo it.
Most of them are dead.
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Day 1881

They managed to crack the code and override the locks, tried to undo the cooling wings too but they need a manual override or external cutting
We are excited

Bunch of guys suited up, ready to leave the ship
Someone suggested we could be in deep space with no observers directly around, but if they can go outside and fold out the wings, cool the reactor, they could power it up to normal capacity, run the water and air systems on full.
Everything will get back to normal
Power up the engine and go home

Fuck Fuck Fuck

Something went wrong. As soon as they opened the airlock something exploded. Whole ship jolted violently. Bunch of people smashed their heads open on the walls as they fell or got crushed by loose cargo.

Lost any feedback from the portside engine bay. Most of the passive radiators are leaking or gone completely.
They say we will lose energy in a few years. Reactor is now at 14% capacity.

Looking down the spinal corridor, I swear the ship’s frame is twisted now. Heard that Lüanözza shot himself.

Did they rig the airlocks?

We are stuck here. Forever.
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Day 1889

Bei is sick, like the majority of the crew … no more nutrient pills. Only reason they lasted this long is that part of the crew refused to take them. Most of those are dead now. Teeth fell out, gums and skin bleeding. Acting weird.

Sail-sickness
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Day 1892

Bei died. Had a high fever and was short of breath.
Took his body to the flight deck.
I am alone in the quarters now.
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Day 1926

More than six years

Food is running very low, only getting a dry-mix ration twice a week. We would have ran out long before, if we still had a full crew. Now it’s less than a quarter of us.
The rest of the food is from the farms
I’ve lost 9 teeth,
My arms have turned grey
I don’t dare to look in the mirror any more

I’m afraid of going home now.
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Day -

All the common room clocks have stopped working, I’ve lost count of what day it is.
I don’t think it matters any more
Ran out of dry-mix food.

Farm stuff not enough
We are all hungry
Some people started eating the wall insulation and paper.
I tried, made me sick
Day -

Had some meat today.Cooked it on the coolant pipes
Was chevy
Lost a tooth eating.
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Day-

Some say it’s been year as of today 9
A tenth of the crew is alive maybe
Rarely see people any more
Moved some plants to my quarters so the others won’t steal any.
Placed them on the bunks of the guys:

Grünza is a fhanna
Kazal is some cabbage i forgot the name of
Medolovonza is some mushrooms
Enzzelmaiz is an algae tub
Bei is a itrinni plant
Also one for Hin, a grélli flower

Dreamed of the others

We were laying in our bunks.Hin was there too. Amme was sitting next to me. Had to be her .. I don't remember her face any more. Even in the bunks I felt the sun
We were talking about planning a hike on Setten. None of us were on Setten before in my dream

Kazal has been there, though. Second jump. Eiylassünndür itself. He said it's a beautiful city. Expensive too.

I miss them.
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Day – few months later i guess

Power went out for good.

Gravity is gone. Fucked up the gang. Only one I could save are Medolovonza and Enzzelmaiz
Air difficult to breathe
Using a hand crank flashlight. Hurts to use.

Moved the remainder of the gang to the reactor bay.
Some of the coolant pipes are still hot

No more water, I’m licking off dew off the walls.
Some tried to drink coolant back then, but died days later.

It’s dead silent here. Only noises I hear are tools, bodies, debris hitting the walls
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Day 4712

Found a clock on the bridge
14 years
Lost most of my teeth, the last few are loose
Head is pounding
I'm covered in bleeding sores.

My toes are black
Tail tip too

Hurts to move
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Day 4912

Been weeks since I last saw any crew alive
I only see dead bodies floating around.Ghosts
Seen one floating in my quarters when I woke up.

Don't recognise them. Never do.
They are hollow.

All I hear is my echo.
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Day 4984

Last one alive. Must be.
Ghosts everywhere.
Freezing.

Banged on the hull. Nobody responded. Hurts to write.
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Captain’s Log: Day 6012

This is my ship now
Earned it
Amme would be proud
Zenril Addrala, Kanpiu of Dreadnaught 17-02-OU1-3-03-0218 “Kamrilli”

I need the crew back on duty.

Found 3 servicemen alive in the flight deck. Severely malnourished, ill, naked, feasting on a decayed remains of a fourth
Ordered them get cleaned, uniform up and report for duty
They refused to answer
Exercised my right for court-martial and sentenced them to death for disobeying a superior.
Gunned them down

A Kanpiu has to maintain order
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Captain’s Log: Day 6134

Searched the warship for crew.
Did not locate any.

Ending my shift
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Gate shift leader's log | Haidon Gürma Medlinonissa | ID 58462CD34
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Incoming group AXT-35-34232 entered Brallü Gate 2 in loose formation, small timing issues with navigation.
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ROLL CALL
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17-02-NK3-4—01-0174 PRESENT
17-02-NK3-4—01-0198 PRESENT
17-02-OU1-3-03-0218 ABSENT
17-02-RK5-2—01-0231 PRESENT
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INCIDENT REPORT
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17-02-OU1-3-03-0218 entered Brallü Gate 6 seconds after the rest of ship cluster
17-02-OU1-3-03-0218 began drifting out of formation upon exiting jump space.
Visible debris cluster on the port side.
Damaged Gun coolant winglets
Damaged portside engine skirt
Navigation lights off
ID signal off
Engine off
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Action
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Called 17-02-OU1-3-03-0218, no response
Called 17-02-OU1-3-03-0218, no response
Called 17-02-OU1-3-03-0218, no response
Called 17-02-OU1-3-03-0218, no response
Called 17-02-OU1-3-03-0218, no response
Emergency boarding team has been dispatched.

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Emergency boarding report | Atiz Maiel Sürmansksa | ID 12786DK12
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Energy off
Gravity off
Heating off
Atmosphere absent
Walls covered with frozen mucus of unknown kind.
Remains found, heavy decay
No survivors
Recommending full investigation

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Action
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Ship towed to port Brallü MZ83 for investigation
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Maintenance report | Feuhzeüsla Illen Mazülli | ID 79101MA71

Vessel: 17-02-OU1-3-03-021
CfI: Jump gate incident

About 3900 bodies have been recovered in various states of decay. Most are impossible to identify
Records before jumping state a complement of 4105
Took samples of the mucus.
Portside damage is from manual override of ship lockdowns during stasis
Reactor initiated self shutdown to prevent meltdown
Sent fuel rod samples for analysis
The following rapid cooling of the ship caused condensation to form, irreparably damaging records and terminals
Bridge and officers' quarters show signs of combat, every bridge blast door have been damaged. Mutiny is suspected.
Bridge has been ransacked, most of the records were destroyed well before the water damage.
Recovered the black box, waiting for analysis. Batteries were dead, implying a full record length of 48 years
Recovered the backup navigation tape. Heavy damage, waiting for analysis
Ship still had an atmosphere after the portside damage, indicating the atmosphere leaked out at microfractures. This, however, would take at least a century.
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Lab report I:
Black box and navigation backup tapes have suffered heavy damage from the condensation and ice formation.
Recovered data implies the vessel was given corrupted alignment data upon entry by the on board terminal.
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Lab report II:
Mucus on walls is made up of faeces, skin cells, decayed biomass and water ice.
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Lab report III:

Fuel rod decay indicates a time dilation of 12114 years.

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Action
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None
Deep clean vessel
Scrap vessel
Inform crew relatives